Desires

Extended version of original by Javed Akhtar (Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara)

Dil aakhir tu kyon rota hai

Duniya mein yunhi hota hai

Ye jo teri hasratein hain

Inhi se saari museebatein hain

Thodi naadaniyan hain 

sabka qissa

Thodi hairaaniya hain 

sabka hissa

Soch teri bekaar hi nahi thamti

Tere sochne se ye duniya nahi chalti

Kyon nahi zindagi ko is pal mein sanjota hai

Dil aakhir tu kyon rota hai ?

-MM

Miss you

Highway is still open

And there are words unspoken

Phone still rings

But your name never blinks

Trains are still running

Why I don't see you coming?

Distance is still exactly the same

It all seems so very strange!

I had never imagined that this would happen

All this makes me really saddened

You were my world

I was trying to make it work

But things just turned bad

Even my proximity started to make you sad

And then one day 

You said go away

You seemed to insist

That for you, I don't exist

Feelings just died

Coz u thought I lied

You just lost the faith

Reckoned my feelings were fake

Cited me as a mistake

And decided to break

Not only that

You insulted our past

You described it as a suffering

Neglecting all the good times and good things

Thats where you got it wrong

I agree I could not always stay strong

I had some fears and sometimes got scared

You punished me for my thoughts which I honestly shared!

There were times when I had thoughts which were selfish and mean

But you judged my state of mind and could not see the being!

I deeply regret 

And literally accept

I acted insane, 

Caused plenty of pain!

I was always wrong and you were always right

I was like darkness and you were bright light

I agree I was weak and acted small, 

I agree I made us both hit against the wall

But underneath it all, 

A feeling stood tall:

A feeling with no limitations

A feeling which was beyond reasons

A feeling that made me feel blessed

A feeling that can not be expressed

I believe I deserved a chance

But I will respect your stance

Although I don't agree with your decision

But have no more energy for derision 

I don't know if what has happened is for good or for bad

I just know that without you I am going crazy, I am going mad

Each passing day

I hope and I pray

that you don't forget me

and may be forgive me!

I am improving little by little 

Have some faith in me and you will see everything settle 

I can't promise a perfect world

But I can promise to stay knurled

I can deal with loneliness 

But what shall I do with emptiness

Please talk to me,  I miss you a lot

Please come back, it will all work out!

-MM

Mistakes

There are punishments for mistakes- then why REVENGE? 
-MM

THE Last Moment

I wonder how it will feel ...
at the very last moment of life ...
at that moment when I'll be standing
at the edge between life and death ...

What will happen to,
all the worries
all the stress
all the fears
all the anxiety
all the guilt
all the regrets
all the anger within me
all the frustations I have within
all the pride I carry
all that so called "self" respect,
Will all of them just vainsh out laughing on me,
after sticking with me whole of my life!
What about love and compassion, will they despair?


Will I be happy that the 'struggle' of life is over
or will I then realize what a wonderful opporunity life was?

Will I become aware how simple it was to be happy
and what a mess I made it to be by letting my mind rule it,
by trying to control it, by building so many expectations around it
or will it actually be a moment of relief?

What about all people I love
What about people who love me
Will I feel sad that I might never see them again
or will I then grasp the concept of oneness ?

Will the journey continue...
or will it just be THE end?
Will there be another chance ...another  BEGINNING?

Feelings

Just like too many cooks spoil the food, too many opinions spoil the FEELINGS! -MM

Degrees

Whats the point in having all those degrees when you can't even read feelings in a person's eyes ? -MM