Ab mujhe jeena hai ...

​thoda sa,
bas thoda sa saath aur diya hota
to hum us paar pohonch jaate ....

wo kehte hain na ki raat sabse gehrii tab hoti hai jab ujaala hone ko ho,
kaash thoda intezaar kiya hota
to ujaala ho jaata!

lekin tum wapas laut gayin
phir usi kinaare pe jahan se hum kabhi saath chale thhe

aur main ...
na to wapas laut paaya
na hi kabhi paar pahoncha
na aage badhne ka hausla raha
na peeche jaane ki ichcha
wahin kahin beech samandar mein ruk gayi zindagi meri

phir lehren bahaake kabhi aage le jaatin to kabhi peche
kabhi dooba detin to saans ruk jaati,
aur phir kabhi wohi lehrein oopar ko phenk detin
aur main saans le leta ....
kitne din kitni raaton tak bas yunhi behtaa rahaa

kahin na kahin dil ko yakeen thha,
yakeen ki tum ek din wapas aa jaaogi
aur us paar hamari ek khubsoorat duniya hogi,
aur bas isi yakeen ke sahaare din guzarte gaye,
kabhi kahin koi aahat hoti, to aankhein tumhe dhoondne lagti
phir dheere dheere aankhon mein itnaa dhundhlaa pan aa gaya ki kuch nazar aana bhi band ho gaya

yakeen ki diwaar mein daraarein aane lagi thhiin
intezaar bematlab sa lagne laga thha,
aur ummeed ab mar rahi thhi!

phir ek din dil ne tanha hi behne ka faisla liya
is paar tum thhi par chaah ke bhi is paar main aa nahi paaya
us paar tum nahi thhi to dil ne kabhi us paar bhi jaana nahi chaaha


par samandar ki lehrein ab jhakjhorne lagi tthiin
sabse ladne ki himmat ab toot rahi thhii aur waqt,
waqt haalat ka sahaara lekar mujhe tezi se us paar dhakelne laga thhaa


par aanewaale kal se poori tarah bekhabar mann ab bhi pareshaan thhaa
galtiyon aur pachtaavon ke zakhm abhi poore bhare nahi thhe
dooba hi sahi lekin paani ka saahaara to thha
lekin us paar kinaara thhaa

dartaa thha us paar gaya to kahin mere zakhm koi dekh na le
jaanta thha koi unhe kabhi samajh nahi paayega
paani hi ab kinaara lagne laga thhaa

roz sooraj ugta aur doob jaata
har din jaise bematlab thaa beimaani thha
bas yahi aas thhi ki shayad ye ujaale ke pehle ka gehraa andhera hai
lekin andhera aur gehraa hi hota gaya

koi nahi thha jisse main ye sab keh paata
jo shayad mujhe samajh paata wo ab jaa chuka thhaa

dil mein bohot saari shikaaytein thhiin
bohot saara gussa...
gussa haalat pe
gussa apne aap pe
gussa kuch tum pe kuch khuda pe
gussa apne jazbaat pe

agar is gusse se khud ko bacha paata
to shayad baat kuch aur hoti
agar tumhe bhula paata
to shayad baat kuch aur hoti
agar tumhe ye sab bata paata
to shayad baat kuch aur hoti
agar is dil ko samjha paata
to shayad baat kuch aur hoti

phir ek din dhoop nikli

​us din us paar bilkul saaf nazar aa raha thha

us paar sab khush thhe

koi bhi meri tarah tanha nahi thhaa

sabke paas koi thha, sabke saath koi thha

un laakhon hazaaron chehron mein

ek chehraa tumhara bhi thha

tum to us paar pohonch chuki thhiin

tum ab kisi aur ke saath thhiin

mujhe poori tarah bhool chuki thiin

aur tum khush thiin, bohot khush thiin

dil ko kuch samajh nahi aaya,

humein to saath us paar jaana thha

lekin tum to aage nikal gayin,

mujhe yunhi tanha chodd ke

us pal jaise sab kuch ruk gaya

pyaar mohabbat par se bharosa hi uthh gaya

us din apni bewakoofi ka ehsaas hua

us din apni nadaani ka deedar hua

jo hua wo ho gaya

lekin ab mujhe jeena hai

apni zindagi ko kuch matlab dena hai

zindagi ko ek maqsad dena hai

aur us maqsad ko jeena hai

khushiyon ko chheenna hai

aur baantna hai

har din har pal ko yaadgaar bana dena hai

ab mujhe jeena hai

ab mujhe jeena hai

ab mujhe jeena hai

ab mujhe jeena hai .....

Miss you more and more each day!

A collection of quotes!

“Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but its harder to give up when you know its everything you want.” 
 ~Author Unknown

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.” 

 ~Author Unknown

“Maybe part of loving is learning to let go.” 

 ~Author Unknown

“Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated.”   ~Lamartine

“Because of indifference, one dies before one actually dies.” 

 ~Author Unknown

“Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.”  ~Author Unknown

“Friendship is not capable of ending, For if it ends it is only because it never existed.”  

~Author Unknown

“If you shut your door to all errors truth will be shut out.”   ~Rabindranath Tagore

Jaane na kahan wo duniya hai, Jaane na wo hai bhi ya nahi,

jahan meri zindagi mujhse - itni khafaaa nahi!!! ~ [Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na]

Patjhad Mein Jo Phool Murjha Jaate Hain,  

Wo Baharon Ke Aane Se Khilte Nahin

Kuchh Log Ek Roz Jo Bichad Jate Hain, 

Wo Hazaron Ke Aane Se Milte Nahin

Umr Bhar Chahe Koi Pukara Kare Unka Naam,

Wo Phir Nahin Aate, Wo Phir Nahin Aate ! ~ [Aap Ki Kasam]

... par saala ab uthe kaun,

Kaun phir se mehnat kare dil lagaane ko, dil tudwaane ko,

Nahi ... ab saala mood nahi hai,

Par uthenge kisi din, usi ganga kinaare dumroo bajane ko

Unhi galiyon mein daud jaane ko

Kisi ke ishq mein phir se pad jaane ko ...

[Raanjhanaa]

Love is a LIE, Forever is a LIE!

I feel sad when
she - who claimed to love me from the bottom of her heart,
she - who claimed to care more for me than herself,
she - who claimed to have given in everything because of immense love for me
she - who made promises of being with me forever

when she treats me like I don't exist!

I sometimes wonder if she ever loved me,
will she ever love anyone
or is she is just a weak girl who plays the victim
and look for support in others,
as long as someone can provide her that - she returns love
and when someone can't, all the love simply dies out!

I cried, I almost died, completely broke down
but still I waited but she never looked back, not even to say good bye!

Lucky are those whose feelings just die .... there is no place for emotions in this world.
 
Thanks to her for teaching me the most shocking lesson of my life -
Love is a LIE, Forever is a LIE!

I am Sorry :(

I am really really really SORRY, please forgive me!
I know I mean nothing to you but if possible please please please don't leave me :(
I LOVE  YOU!
Please believe me, I really do!

Breakup Recovery Errors

System error "0x00000cdfffff"

Accept: Done ✔
Learn your lessons: Done ✔
Stay positive: Done ✔
Focus on yourself: Done ✔
Erase from Facebook: Done ✔
Erase from Google Talk: Done ✔
Erase all Pictures: Done ✔
Erase from cell phone: Done ✔
Play it cool: Done ✔
Erase from the HEART: Error ✖
System recovery FAILED